was it da ja vu or i'm just impaired
Mood:  down
crap! i can't believe it happened again

exhibit 1
when i was in third year and we were reading some essay about myself and i was like trembling... some said teary-eyed.. almost bursting in short STUPID

exhibit 2
it was our filipino prelims and we're doin a impromptu or extempo. it' bout anything under the sun. well the first guy who spilled his guts was so shocked that he almost said nothin'.

well mine was different. i was the last. on the first day of the oral exam, i promised myself that if i weren't called that day, i would give my best! and know what? i was called last!! but the other girl called before me picked the last question on the list and our teacher had to think of somethin else to be given to me. that was the question i was preparin'!! then when it was my turn.....

i was like an asthmatic chick with its eyes almost poppin' out. i could everyone laughin but i just couldn't walk out!!the same nightmare i had in jr class was done again. when i was finished everyone clapped at me. i dont know if their glad i made it, they were buggin me, or its already over and it's lunchtime. it felt like all my energy had been vaccumed. my friend approach me and asked me why i was crying- the same thing my teacher told me last year!! i said i wasn't and i wasn't suppose to cry at all.

maybe i was just irritated because i'm spillin' my inner thoughts in front of the public just like reading my essay in front of the class. and the worst thing is that i can't walk out. it different when you blog bcos u dont know the peeps who are reading your blog and youre not in front of them. it was sure humiliating but i still had the courage to go back to school at 1 pm and everything was ok.

after all it wasn't that bad. i got 44 over 50!! not bad- others got a mere 20 for saying uhmmmmm in their most confident voice. i even got a hi5 from one of my classmates for my score lols.
i just wish my friends from the other sec know about this cos for sure i will get more laughin than what i got a while ago. and they will keep remindin it to me. those jerks!!

well i think i will continue first on my writing because when you become a better writer, you'll become a better speaker!!! way to go poulla!